The girls and I have been very busy the past few weeks. Thanksgiving was very low key as I wasn’t sure how I would be. Sometimes things that I think are going to be hard, I can breeze right through. While other times, things I don’t think will be a problem, it is all that I can do to not flood the earth again with my tears. Thanksgiving though, I did really well. The girls and I just had dinner with my mom and dad, and then I watched Breaking Dawn 2 with my fabulous friend Erica. Yes, I love the vampires and werewolves. (Don’t judge!) The day after Thanksgiving, I took the girls to get their pictures taken. They took beautiful pictures. As of now though, I will only post a few on here. The others are a surprise, and I will have to wait a bit before I post them. They will be up soon enough though. Here are a few of the regular pictures they took.
The rest of my break has been devoted to a huge project for one of my graduate classes. I will not be doing any homework this week even though I do have some due in the other class. Why, you ask?! Well, I get to see my husband this week!! I have off work, the sub plans are made, and 4 days worth of stuff is all planned out. Homework is not a priority this week, and my professors will just have to understand.
I have very strange emotions rolling through me again. I’m so excited to see Trent, but I also have this heaviness on my heart knowing that this is it for a while. I remember from the last time Trent was deployed, and he had his pass right before going overseas. The anticipation of the “time is up” moment hovers over you the entire time. It’s like those moments on TV when there is a countdown on a device and all you want is for someone to deactivate it, to freeze time for a while. But, this isn’t a movie, this is a real life thing. We’ll take it a moment at a time, and try to enjoy every second of it.
Moving onto the next subject, thankfulness. It seems as though everyone on Facebook is doing this thing where they write down daily something they are thankful for. I’ve never done this before, but I thought that it would do my heart good this week to list a few. The end of this week will be very difficult, when Trent leaves after his pass, and I know the down poor of emotions is headed my way again. As mentioned in a previous post, I need to give thanks at all times, not just in the good. So, here is a short list:
· I’m thankful for a loving family who sticks it out with all my craziness.
· I’m thankful for friends, no matter how close or far away they are, my true friends are always there for me.
· I’m thankful for my job, coworkers, and bosses who have been nothing but supportive and make going to work enjoyable.
· I’m thankful for my little girls. Their laughter can brighten the whole world.
· I’m thankful for my husband, who leads my daughters and me to a stronger relationship with our Savior. He has the heart of a servant of God, and it is one that I aspire to have as well.
· And most of all, I am thankful for my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ. There is no other, and His power is beautiful and mighty.
A few weeks ago, Pastor Rusty mentioned a difference between those who have the love of Christ in their hearts and those that haven’t found the love of Christ yet. We all still have the hard stuff in life (cancer, loss of loved ones, deployments, unemployment, divorce, heartache, etc.) regardless of if we are saved or not. The difference is, if you are a follower of Jesus Christ, you are never ever alone during those hard times. I have thought of that often the past few weeks and how very thankful I am that my heart belongs to Jesus, how He is always with me, and how He will do all that He can to help me through this. But, as Pastor Rusty said today, when those terrible times do come along, we can’t just sprinkle a little bit of Jesus in there and think it’s going to make it all better. We have to give everything we have to Him. He will fight for our hearts, but we have to give it all to Him. So, I guess what I’m saying is this….I am so very blessed to have my Savior, and it is what I am most thankful for. This next year will be an uphill battle, but we’ll get through it just fine with the help of Him. But, we are not the only family out there going through this. Pray for the other families preparing for this long journey. Pray for their hearts and their healing. Pray that they will find strength in our Lord. He loves us, all of us! He wants all of our hearts! Be thankful for that.