Sunday, November 25, 2012

With a Thankful Heart

The girls and I have been very busy the past few weeks.  Thanksgiving was very low key as I wasn’t sure how I would be.  Sometimes things that I think are going to be hard, I can breeze right through.  While other times, things I don’t think will be a problem, it is all that I can do to not flood the earth again with my tears.  Thanksgiving though, I did really well.  The girls and I just had dinner with my mom and dad, and then I watched Breaking Dawn 2 with my fabulous friend Erica.  Yes, I love the vampires and werewolves.  (Don’t judge!)  The day after Thanksgiving, I took the girls to get their pictures taken.  They took beautiful pictures.  As of now though, I will only post a few on here.  The others are a surprise, and I will have to wait a bit before I post them.  They will be up soon enough though.  Here are a few of the regular pictures they took. 


The rest of my break has been devoted to a huge project for one of my graduate classes.  I will not be doing any homework this week even though I do have some due in the other class.  Why, you ask?! Well, I get to see my husband this week!!  I have off work, the sub plans are made, and 4 days worth of stuff is all planned out.  Homework is not a priority this week, and my professors will just have to understand. 

I have very strange emotions rolling through me again.  I’m so excited to see Trent, but I also have this heaviness on my heart knowing that this is it for a while.  I remember from the last time Trent was deployed, and he had his pass right before going overseas.  The anticipation of the “time is up” moment hovers over you the entire time.  It’s like those moments on TV when there is a countdown on a device and all you want is for someone to deactivate it, to freeze time for a while.  But, this isn’t a movie, this is a real life thing.  We’ll take it a moment at a time, and try to enjoy every second of it. 

Moving onto the next subject, thankfulness.  It seems as though everyone on Facebook is doing this thing where they write down daily something they are thankful for.  I’ve never done this before, but I thought that it would do my heart good this week to list a few.  The end of this week will be very difficult, when Trent leaves after his pass, and I know the down poor of emotions is headed my way again.  As mentioned in a previous post, I need to give thanks at all times, not just in the good.  So, here is a short list:

·         I’m thankful for a loving family who sticks it out with all my craziness.

·         I’m thankful for friends, no matter how close or far away they are, my true friends are always there for me.

·         I’m thankful for my job, coworkers, and bosses who have been nothing but supportive and make going to work enjoyable.

·         I’m thankful for my little girls.  Their laughter can brighten the whole world.

·         I’m thankful for my husband, who leads my daughters and me to a stronger relationship with our Savior.  He has the heart of a servant of God, and it is one that I aspire to have as well.

·         And most of all, I am thankful for my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ.  There is no other, and His power is beautiful and mighty.

A few weeks ago, Pastor Rusty mentioned a difference between those who have the love of Christ in their hearts and those that haven’t found the love of Christ yet.  We all still have the hard stuff in life (cancer, loss of loved ones, deployments, unemployment, divorce, heartache, etc.) regardless of if we are saved or not.  The difference is, if you are a follower of Jesus Christ, you are never ever alone during those hard times.  I have thought of that often the past few weeks and how very thankful I am that my heart belongs to Jesus, how He is always with me, and how He will do all that He can to help me through this.  But, as Pastor Rusty said today, when those terrible times do come along, we can’t just sprinkle a little bit of Jesus in there and think it’s going to make it all better.  We have to give everything we have to Him.  He will fight for our hearts, but we have to give it all to Him.  So, I guess what I’m saying is this….I am so very blessed to have my Savior, and it is what I am most thankful for.  This next year will be an uphill battle, but we’ll get through it just fine with the help of Him.  But, we are not the only family out there going through this.  Pray for the other families preparing for this long journey.  Pray for their hearts and their healing.  Pray that they will find strength in our Lord.  He loves us, all of us!  He wants all of our hearts! Be thankful for that.

Monday, November 12, 2012

Random Thoughts

Daily Life = Balancing Act
Shower, get ready, eat breakfast, let dog out, get two little girls ready, let dog in, go to preschool, go to work, teach 23 fifth graders, do lesson plans, grade papers, go to meetings, go to preschool, fix or get supper, let dog out, eat supper, let dog in, feed dog and fish(if I remember), bath time, story time, bedtime, laundry, make lunches, work on grad homework, go to bed, sleep, shower, get ready, eat breakfast…..

So that’s pretty much how it goes on a “normal” day.  That’s not including all the randomness that pops up on a regular basis.  So at the beginning part of this mobilization I was struggling with keeping up with all this.  Now, I’m not sure how it happened, but I seemed to have found my balance.  I don’t feel like pulling my hair out at the end of the day, or wonder if I have any hair left after pulling it out throughout the day.  :-)  Yes, life is still nuts!  I guess I’ve just gotten into the swing of all the craziness.

Acts of Kindness
It absolutely amazes me how some people continue to always be there for me.  My parents are amazing!  They have got to be getting tired of helping me, I mean it has been 29 years, and for some people 1 day of me is too much.  ;-) I honestly don’t know how they do it, but all it takes is one phone call and they can solve the world’s problems.  I will be forever grateful for their love and kindness. 

I also have some very close friends who have dropped what they are doing, because I need to go somewhere without my two little shadows, and they are there in a heartbeat.  And there are those who take their one day off work to stay home with Joanna when she isn’t feeling 100%, so I don’t have to take one of my slim number of sick days left.  Or, they know just when I need that special pick-me-up phone call (Erica, I will never know how you always know when to call, but you do.)

I am so undeserving of all of this kindness and love, but I am so thankful for each of you!

Little Ones
As mentioned earlier, Joanna is on her first of the season breathing issues.  We are moving right on through it though.  The sudden burst of cold weather was not ideal for her airways.  A slow transition is a little easier on her, but the steroids, breathing treatments, and meds are doing their job. 

Abigail, is learning some hard lessons these days.  As her preschool put it so nicely, “she seems to have lost her listening ears.” (This was actually on her daily sheet last week.) Right now her two favorite toys are on top of the refrigerator, because she received two time-outs at school today. According to her teacher her hardest time of the day to listen is at “circle time.”  I asked Abigail why she wasn’t listening and she replied with, “Cause she’s always talkin’ when I want to talks!”  It’s hard not to smile when she says stuff like this.  She will get her toys back for every day she doesn’t get a time out.  If she gets more time-outs at school, then she’ll have to relinquish more of her toys.  So…either she’ll learn her lesson and get her toys back, or I’ll need to get a bigger refrigerator.  On a positive note though, it’s been a long time coming and she has regressed multiple times with all the changes in her little world, but Abigail is 100% potty trained!!!!  High-fives all around!!   

The Husband
Training is coming to an end in the next couple of weeks.  They have a few more field exercises to do, and then that’s about it. He’s doing well, and we are both looking forward to his 4 days home (though it is actually a ½ day, then 2 days, and then another ½ day) but let’s look at the glass half full and round up to 4!  Oh yes, and they changed the rules and he gets to come here now, instead of us going to El Paso!  (That helped out the pocket book a ton!!)

I love how close we get when we are apart from each other.  Don’t get me wrong, I miss him so much that my heart literally aches, but we learn things about each other that I don’t think we would have ever known without going through these times apart.  You just appreciate each other so much more, and all the things that you love about each other is just magnified.